Have you ever gone to, or thought about going to, an open mic? How actually terrifying this was for me the first time I went. It's a really funny story looking back on it now, but my wish for you, if you've ever had open-mic aspirations, is that your first experience doing such an awesome thing unfolds a little more smoothly than mine did. (don't worry - it has a happy, happy ending! And was totally worth all the effort!)
The story actually inspired my idea to begin Folklore From the Brave-ish: A collection of inspiring writings, poems, and true stories, penned by both myself and others, of imperfect courage and everyday music-making.
The following is an excerpt from my own story - Head Full of Doubt (title borrowed from an Avett Brothers song). You can read the full version - including how The Avett Brothers magically cheered me on - here.
A flood of music hit as I swung the front door open and repeated my silent, mental refrain… “you belong”.
It then only took perhaps 15 seconds to realize.
This was no open mic. Not an open mic. “MAGGIE, THIS IS NOT AN OPEN MIC.”
No. Oh no. This was not the night where my folky, vulnerable, awkwardly-sung song would leave my lips for the very first time and float softly to the ears of a group of equally vulnerable people who would then tell me how brave I was for trying such a darn scary thing. This was…
a hip hop concert?
I froze as my brain glitched and I tried to sort out my next move. What is a stay-at-home mom holding a guitar in the middle of a hip hop concert supposed to do now?
→ I'll interrupt here to ask if you're okay? Are you okay? Because I wasn't.
Until I tried again.
I did indeed end up at that same place another week, another night, when there was an actual open mic happening. And that night… that night - my folky, vulnerable, awkwardly-sung songs left my lips for the very first time and floated softly to the ears of a group of equally vulnerable people who told me how brave I was for trying such a darn… scary… thing.